jan 14 : Heb 5

I want steak! The latter part of this passage deals maturity. Christian maturity is so difficult to see because unlike physical maturity it is not measurable with simple standards. Over my years in college I have noticed that there have been times of spiritual birth and spiritual death. These periods of time have been so close together relative to time that it confuses the heck out of me. I believe that my faith in Jesus Christ and God is not so "solid" as I had at times imagined. In Hebrews 5 we see that Paul states that some of us need to go back to the basics, that we need once again milk. That our foundation is not yet stable to handle the anger of life storms. I believe he is saying here, "you are not yet sufficiently equipped to be leading others. You need to figure out how to lead yourself." I can see myself fall into this category. Its hard leading a small group. Being a leader sets you up for a perception of holiness. But that simply is not the case. It is about how mature you really are. I want to say I am ready for solid food, but a part of me says to slow down. I hope that I can eat solid food to help feed others, and I hope this also for our fellow leaders at Cornerstone.